Monday

There's an italian song called "Monday"by Vasco Rossi: Lunedi. It speaks about how he hates Mondays, and then a bunch of other things about his girlfriend who left him. It happens to me as well, to not like Mondays. They are not always the best days. I try do the most things on Mondays, so I can organize the rest of the week better, but usually I dont have the energy and mess up or snap. It's like the day that reminds you someone/thing is controlling our lifes. Everyone has his/her own Mondays. Even if the days is not on an actual monday. The day after your time off, the day you need to go "back on track".
I am wondering what's my track right now. Is it what other people/society or the governement is planning for me or expecting me to do?! Nope, I must take ownership of everything. Then I can say I am bored. I am mistaking something, mostly I need to begin spending lots of money to do what I want. And at this point I think I will. I'll spend them all - fakkit. They're needed to do what you like when you're alive, I was saving them for a house, a baby, and I am almost 33 and don't even have a boyfriend. Which is kewl but then I should re-set my priorities.
Why do you write it over here?! You may ask.
Well... cus then I know it's for real. It's like there's a little revolution beginning inside me and if I'll stir it up it's going to explode = changes will happen. They say in life you need to "invest", money, time, whatever you have and can, to get a profit. Maybe this is true. I always played it quite safe (that is do what is expected me to do, or what should be best to do). But now I am really quite bored.

N.B. this post may not apply to people who have the perfect job and love to go doing it, or people who really don't care about what they do with their time. Unfortunately for me, I do.

Lullaby

I am tired. I suffer from insomnia sometimes. Too many thoughts for the highly sensitive person that I am.
I need a lullaby. I am in the process of singing one to myself.

Lullaby of my dreams
Singed to me by myself
Bring me into the stream
Of life where I can swim

Fly me up in the air
I will unfold my wings
And go where I don't dare

No matter what I'll sing
Lullaby of my dreams