Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Tata

wow first post with the new Google blogger look- I had no idea of the changes, as I am not that active writing anymore. See how simple things can make my day... I already forgot the pointless rantle I was about to write and instead got pointed at way more positive things. I like the new look I like the HTML integration. I see potentials, where before I only saw them in Wordpress.

so I will just leave a sentence here today: life is shit sometimes, but if it would always be good we would not know the difference and we would not enjoy it. I love my life.

Ying/Yang power... forever  Star Wars !

Friday, December 23, 2011

Relationship with a Wall - Xmas

Hey Wall I wish you a very Merry Xmas but I also wanted to tell you this:
You wall are hard! I keep hurting myself every time I try to deal with you.
I think I may let you go, Wall. You're not much of a company anyway.
You stand there and put all the responsibility of this relationship to me. You damn wall! You just stand there. I wonder if there will be a day when you may reply or show any of those things you whispered in my head. You lied. You promised me lots of things and never moved a finger... and yet you have no fingers so I could have just trusted my guts on that. I thought it was okay for me being here and talking to you. I am getting bored now. I want something more than just a relationship with you, wall.
I am going to ask Father Xmas to bring me a talking fence or something else than the hardcore bricks you show me all the time. I need air. Your bricks don't let any new air come through.
I hope you're listening to me wall, cus my wish will be due tomorrow....

Yours truly,
         that little voice beneath You! 

Single Xmas Menu

This Xmas is the first that I will be passing on my own. I don't really mind because Xmas to me is the time you spend with family, so not having one of my own and not having the possibility to travel to mine, it is okay this way. Also, I wouldn't like to spend Xmas day with people I don't really intimately know. I like a familiar Xmas and familiarity means you can be yourself with people who love you and care for you. The last years have been testing many of my relationships, enduring some of them and hindering others. Xmas is also food time, everywhere. And everywhere there are different food traditions. I'll keep close to those I grew up with- as they remind me of my grandma and my family. We used to spend Xmas eve (the 24th) at my grandma's place. All my mum's family would be there that evening: adults and children reunited to wait midnight together. That dinner was a big event, lots of food had to be cooked so I remember my aunts going earlier to help my grandma cook. The menu was every year the same, for you can't eat meat (or shouldn't according to Catholic traditions) the night before Jesus is born. Finding fresh fish in December was certainly a challenge, lucky one of the aunts lived on the sea-coast and she could get fresh fish the very same morning. Only now, that I am an adult and I go shopping on my own, I can understand the exaggerated Xmas shopping hysteria and think "poor aunt!".  So the menu was quite simple. I like to write in in a old fashion menu way so here it is.


As you can see no meat on the menu.
Lobsters were not served to children who usually don't like them because they are alive when they come in the house.
So simple code fish for the little ones.
This was the main menu, of course next to it there would me many appetizers, little finger food that would change every year and that usually has no space on menus. Finger food is one of my favourite type of food.
As tradition my grandma used to make a sweet cornucopia to represent and wish the family abundance.

This was the dinner presented to the whole family (we used to sit approximately with 10-15 people).

Midnight came and Xmas days brought me and my family to the village where my dad's family resided. We used to pack the car on the 25th and drive 2 hours to my dad's village. The village was in the mountain, so we used to always have a white Christmas. I used to love it there, outside of the city, we children could play with the snow and fires were on in the houses. Fireplaces leave such a peculiar odour in the city, I love it very much. It's a cosy scent.
Xmas day at the village was another food-de-force. The menu was much richer in meat, as from the 25th on meat is allowed on the table.

Here it is, I did not include potatoes and veggies and bread... In Italy bread comes by default on the table and potatoes usually as well. No need to mention them on menus. I love the way some cultures, like the Italian one, truly enjoy food.

Both grandmas made the pasta from scratch and both dinners were for min. 10 to max of 20 people. This means a lot of hand and hard work. But the result was worth the job. I think I rarely had such great Xmas dinner and lunch as those respectively proposed by each grandmother.

It was clear they both were family women whose main job was to take care of the family. Traditions like this are gone, women cook less and less. Maybe Xmas and some other holiday's spirit allow women to explore their kitchen capabilities as usually great food is expected on those occasions. I myself didn't wait to have my own family to start the great cooking. I love eating so much that if I don't experiment and learn to cook for myself the way I want it I'd end up spending all my money eating deliciously prepared food. I can learn. Years ago, when I had a boyfriend, I started making food according to the Italian tradition (24th no meat, 25th meat) - challenging myself to some of the best dishes. Since some years though I am alone and I have usually been flying home for the holidays. This year, due to some house renovation, I can't. I'll spend Xmas alone and because some of my friends are busy with other people and some are too lazy to move or think of cooking I decided I will celebrate Xmas on my own in the way I want it; with lots of good food. It isn't true that cooking for one is not fun. It is actually nice because even if you fail no-one except you will know. Good room for improvement and actually to serve the delicious newly learned dishes when guests are/will be around. So since a couple of days I am around looking and buying food so tomorrow I can start cooking without further research.
I also made menus, both for the 24th and the 25th. I even have some food spared for the 26th - you never know!! Now I am going to make you jealous and some may think: why haven't you invited no-body to eat the deliciousness?! ... moving from this thought, let me introduce you to MY FIRST CHRISTMAS MENUs.
As you can see I do not keep the tradition of NOT eating any meat the 24th. I don't like fish so much, so I opt for "white" meat.... the meat factor is because no blood should be eaten, ok I'll clean the chicken. Fish has blood too. The biggest challenge will be the mini Wellington's and the stuffed chicken - both dishes I have never made before. They don't look terribly difficult thou.
The ravioli are already made and I will prepare fresh pesto to go with them. Here's a simple Genovese Pesto recipe. I'd say use only one garlic and no more. I suggest you making your own- it's way more delicious that any you can buy. I will not say cheaper because pine-nuts are freaking expensive! Slavinken are a typical Dutch meat disconsisting usually of ground meat wrapped in bacon or beef. I prefer them wrapped in beef, they're a little less fatty. 
Just to mention: I make the brownies myself (I have made some and for sure will have them tomorrow eve too) but the chocolate cake is pre-made. I am not a huge fan of sweet-dishes. If I could choose between having a chocolate cake or another piece of lasagne for dessert, I'll go with the lasagne. I love savoury food so so much!!! I made this post so tomorrow morning I have NO excuses but to wake up and COOK!!!

I believe everyone should spend one Christmas alone because it does truly make you think a lot.
Maybe good intentions for Next Year will be a bit more coherent and close to what I truly need.
I wish you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS ♥ lots of love to everyone who come to read this.